i saw that movie... nine times in the theatre. i just can't even believe it. i pulled out all my old posters tonight (i have posters from every single movie he's done, including australian films, through brokeback mountain, rolled up against a bookshelf in my room), and was looking at them and cried some more.
i feel so stupid for it, but, i mean... i loved him. no, i didn't know him at all, and we'd only met that once, but i loved him in the way that a seventeen year old girl could love her first celebrity crush.
One of my friends and I would watch that movie at least twice a semester...and I was just thinking the other day that I have no idea where my DVD went :\
The question now is, will I ever be able to watch him on screen without tearing up? I'm debating whether I should watch 10 Things when I get home, but I think it might just depress me.
Ohhhhhhh, I love that movie, and seeing it now makes the whole thing even more surreal. I saw a Brokeback picture today and felt like I was going to cry. This whole thing is just a giant craptacular load of suckage.
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Date: 2008-01-23 07:02 am (UTC)i feel so stupid for it, but, i mean... i loved him. no, i didn't know him at all, and we'd only met that once, but i loved him in the way that a seventeen year old girl could love her first celebrity crush.
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Date: 2008-01-23 07:06 am (UTC)i think i want to watch broke mountain tonight and just cry :(
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