i smoke two joints in the morning, i smoke two joints at night.

heh.

♥

i hope it doesn't hurt him - but i have to admit i can't wait to go look on the teenybopper boards and see some meltdowns.

i've never been the kind to let go.

this totally has me tearing up. djhdskfjh.

Battling brain cancer, heading to Hollywood

TERRE HAUTE, Ind. (WTHI) - While David Cook has been singing on American Idol, in Terre Haute his brother 36-year-old brother Adam Cook has been battling terminal brain cancer.

Now Adam and his wife are traveling to Hollywood to see David sing on the hit television show. Cooks wife, Kendra, told News 10 that he is determined to make the trip. "Originally they [the doctors] wanted to bring him in [to the airport] on a gurney and he said ‘You know I have to show people that I'm strong and that I'm going to make this trip.'"

Quiet yet determined, Cook entered the terminal at Terre Haute International Airport. With the aid of just a cane, he made his way around the room, greeting family and friends before his flight.

The Cooks' Hollywood adventure is being made possible by a family friend, Darrick Scott, who helped get Clarian Health to donate a $40,000 medical flight. Doctor Michael Cravett, a physician with Lifeline and Clarian Health, told News 10 that Adam has "already outlived the normal prognosis for the type of cancer that he has. So when Darrick said, ‘We need to send him out to California as soon as we can,' we jumped on it."

Cook's wife says Adam's Idol contestant brother, David, is elated. "It's amazing," Kendra Cook told News 10. "Once I talked to David and told David 'Hey, your brother and I are coming out there' and just hearing his excitement..."

She says the brothers have been in constant contact via phone and text message as they prepare to reunite.

While David may be a star, Adam is also rising to new heights. Adams wife says he's fighting to live "everyday. Every minute of every day he's just been fighting to...just to keep going."

Clarian Health is also providing a full-time nurse and medic to travel with the couple. Terre Haute radio station B102.7 FM and donations from the Terre Haute community are providing accommodations for the Cooks and their medical staff.

There's no word yet on which song David Cook will sing although Kendra says Depeche Mode is one of Adam's favorite groups.

my heart, you guys. :(